let time slow

It's been a little blurry here lately.

I'm just snuggling my family as much as possible & spending a lot of down time.  I know now that it does no good to get up & fight through all of the fatigue, in fact it probably just hurts me.

Learning about Hashimoto's is like going to school to learn how to be a doctor.  There is so much to learn & it's the type of disease that you really need to get in tune with yourself & learn all about what is happening with your body or your never going to figure out how to get feeling better.  It's a complicated disease.  Nothing is cookie cutter or by the books and no two people are exactly alike.

& I'm trying to find balance with controlling everything that I possibly can with this disease vs having total trust & faith in God & what his plans are for me and where he wants to lead me with all of this.

I am not Hashimoto's.  I am God's eternal daughter.

I am not this body.. this flesh.

Turning fear into trust.  Allowing myself to trust God and give up the fight.

& so right now I slow down & dig deep while I cling tight to them... my beautiful family.

 

She terrorizes the poor dog & tries to get him with the broom under the couch. Our Katie is a pretty wild and confident girl.

& I just want to feel better, but I can't right now because it takes time, & so for now I'll just let things

slow a little & breathe them in.

& I'm faced with the decision to try & wean my little girl.  She is thriving while I am hardly surviving.  These are our last days of breastfeeding.  I need my full body back to concentrate on healing.

There are many naked days, and days just in PJ's for the little one.  But she trucks on, showing off her mad balancing skills.  All is good in her world. 

Overall, though I'm up and down right now with my health, I am okay.  

I

am

okay.

:)